Short Health Update

I realized I left you all hanging after this post... my bad, a lot of stuff has happened between then and now.


I'll try to keep this short:

1. The medicine they gave me caused me to get extremely sick. Think- toilet is my best friend sick and I lost 5lbs in one week sick due to being so nauseous and not able to keep food down. Evidently I am allergic to sulfides/sulfates in pills.
2. I went to see the doctor (a new one, mine is deploying), she was extremely rude... basically told me what I was going to do, and that was that. Well, she gave me new medicine (I have yet to use it!) and sent me on my way. I quickly walked my butt down to the tricare office to change my doctor to another lady that has seen me before!
3. Like I said- I haven't taken any of the new medicine she prescribed for sleeping or anxiety. I had one major panic attack the night before the packers/movers came to the apartment (Monday the 29th). 
4. After that I've been sleeping and panic/anxiety free.... (and this whole week it was without melatonin too!)

Until tonight.
Which explains why this is being written at 1:30am.

For whatever reason I couldn't fall asleep... my heart started racing, I would get hot then cold, my insides feel shaky (if that makes any sense) and then I started getting nasty burps/gas. I've been to the bathroom a few times now...

I'm so mad, sad, annoyed right now.
I don't know what's causing this.

I don't know what to do.

I'm downstairs with the light on.
My blessings journal and Bible are at my side.
I used the rescue stress spray.
I'm praying.

I cannot handle this starting up again!

I want to sleep and function like I used too.
I don't want to live in a constant state if worry =/

I need my husband to know I am okay.


Dear Lord,
Please take away this spirit of fear and anxiety. We were conquering it together, do not leave me now! I know that with you I can be completely healed of this. Thank you Lord. I love you.